Not more than a decade ago, I was going through a time in my life when I felt, to be really honest with you .. when I felt like shit.
Life was like a fast paced chaotic whirlwind … like I was going around and around in a never ending circus wheel in the sky.
I was eating too much, drinking too much, wasn’t exercising, but was busier than a bee making sure that everything ran timely and smoothly in my home and at my job … everything, that is, except for me. That along with the fact that this mama was not getting any younger … and with two young children under toes as well! Humm – can someone remind me here why I had kids in my 40s – surely I discovered that, against universal wisdom, we do not have more patience as we get older!
It took going to Hawaii on a family holiday to realize that I needed to make a change. Firstly, I gotta say this: why on earth would a holiday home put a scale in their bathroom? Really … didn’t they know that families on holidays just wanted to relax and have fun? Geeze! It became quicky apparent that the “good life” of cheese, wine, dinners out, ice cream with the kids, lazing on the beach and by the pool … did not serve me well. In fact, it served me about 1 lb / day! I was there for 2 weeks!! Yowza!!
To be brutally honest, I felt like I didn’t know who I was any more. I hid myself. I numbed myself. I kinda just wanted to hide, not just from others, but from myself. I was at this point in my life where I was … embarrassed to be me.
You see, back at home I was still cooped up in that corporate cage of complacency, so to top off my physical remorse, I had deep emotional pain coming up when I had to show up at the job, ready to write policies about something that nobody really seemed to care about – the air quality in one of the most pristine areas of the country (yup, Canada!).
Oh man … what the heck was I doing with my life?
I really wanted to make an impact, to instigate change in this crazy world, but I felt trapped in a body and mind that I couldn’t even recognize.
I know I needed a lifestyle shift. I know I needed counselling. I know I needed support.
So I found it. I found a coach who helped me to make a decision that I know I wanted to make – a decision that I was procrastinating on – a decision that would change the trajectory of me life. Then I found another one to help me with my business. Then I found another one to help me with my spirituality.
So I started studying nutrition and became a certified integrative health coach. Whaaat? Here came the smoothies, the juices, the grains, the exercise … it was pretty great actually!
Then to boot, I quit that darned job and started my own business.
And now – what do I do … I help others who are stuck in the quagmire of their lives move out of the self-sabotaging habits that are keeping them small, at home and at work.
I help them get through certain phases of their lives, so that they can push away those old generationally conditioned beliefs, and create their own life, on their own terms, with their own decisions and their own healthy habits and beliefs.
It is my steadfast mission to work with women to empower them to get to the next point in their lives, without guilt or shame.
Often we try to get too much done in our days, and we don’t stop to smell the proverbial flowers.
When was the last time you closed your eyes to the sun on your face, or stopped and smelled the flowers, or touched the quivering aspen leaf as it yellowed in the autumn air?
It’s time. Right now. To come back home to yourself and pay attention with intention.
I look back at my past, through all the ups and downs, and sometimes I just shake my head and giggle and wonder, grateful for everything that I went through.
When did you feel less than your best, and what did you do to overcome it?
Change requires commitment
Commitment requires change
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